Tuesday, May 10, 2005


Sorry all, my last post was removed because it was hurtful to certain parties. I thought that it was completely neutral and, if anything, an expression of my feelings for certain other parties and my sadness due to the breakup. I'm sorry that certain other parties took it that way, it was not my intention for it to be hurtful in any way. I have a lot of respect for others' feelings and I'm not spiteful or feel any hatred. I was just trying to understand the situation and get support because I feel really lost. I feel really terrible for any wrong doing on my part.

I hope, and I know, that nobody took this as an attack at certain other parties. The other parties are still the parties that I love and wish the best for. I still hold other parties with the highest regard and I’m sure my friends do too. Other parties are still good people. I think that the post was objective and just a statement of what occurred.

I wanted to apologize once again…I apologize and feel badly if context was taken the wrong way.

Maybe this issue will get resolved.


Andrew said...

We all do stupid shit. Hopefully we learn from experience, we don't repeat our mistakes, and we move on.

If you find someone special, sometimes it's worth it to forgive mistakes that you wouldn't normally forgive with everyone else. Maybe Matt's worth a second look?

I only know Matt's story and maybe he's really an insufferable jerk. But he doesn't seem like he is. He is willing to admit his mistakes, publicly apologize, and proclaim his love to the everyone in the Internet. That should be worth something. Besides, he's really not THAT bad looking....

Whatever happens, best of luck to both parties.

Kathryn said...

Damn it Andrew, why do you always have to be the first to post. I say this because I agree to what he says; we all do stupid shit.
When you are with someone for a long time, you are bound to do stupid shit sometime in that relationship (and the chance of this happening is higher if you are a man). Some stupid shit is worth forgiving and forgetting. Some are not. I am fortunate enough that my boyfriend and I have forgave a lot of shit, which we are still healing from.

Either way, good luck to you both.

Anonymous said...

It's good that you're not spiteful and don't feel any hatred. Fortunately for me, i don't have to adhere to those standards. It's bullshit that "other parties" are offended by shit that you write on your own private personal web log. If they don't like it, tell them to mind their own fucking business. The internet is fucking huge. Nothing that you said could've been worse then child hermapherodite quadraplegic midget bukakke, and we all know how many sites are dedicated solely to that. There are few places in this world where we have the ability to completely and fully express ourselves . If you're web log is the place that you do it, then more power to you. Furthermore, what kind of geek party is it where all of the partygoers are standing around a computer reading your weblog. Not to say that it's not interesting, but I would sure rather be shaking my groove thang than reading a weblog at a party. You're a kind hearted dude, having madd love for a whole party. But you have the right and privledge to express yourself, and you shouldn't have to apologize for writing something down in a venue that is akin to a journal. But do what you think is right, what the hell do i know?

Matt Lee said...

The reason why I apologized not because of what I said. I believe that what I said was neutral, and, if anything, an expression of my resentment for what occured. The reason I apologized is because it caused unintended hurt and I'm not that kind of person.

I agree that there's worse shit on the internet and definitely worse shit that I could have posted. Thanks for agreeing with me that my post was okay, content wise. The other parties were involved in my post, so it was their business too. I didn't put anything personal about the other parties, but if it's taken in a bad light, then I can make change.

Hey, and I don't appreciate you ripping on midget bukakke, I have to make a living somehow...

Matt Lee said...

Andrew and Kathyrn, thanks for your comments. I think that it's true that people do stupid shit and all couples go through things. This probably doesn't compare to a lot of problems that other couples have. And this is only representative of 1% of our relationship.

I'm not sure what's going to happen, but I know how I feel.

Anonymous said...

Maybe you really are a "insufferable jerk." Sounds like your ex-girlfriend is a smart girl.

Matt Lee said...

That was brave of you to make that anonymous post. I love internet warriors. You need to read Andrew Jang's blog (www.iajang.blogspot.com) about that. If you care to leave your name, it may warrant a response.

Yes, I agree that my girlfriend is a smart girl. She'll appreciate the compliment.

Eric Jones said...

yeah fuck that shit about being annoyed. you gotta let lion's roar these days. Some bump and grind like chad but every dog has their own jungle drum and yours happens to be a blog. Fucking beat that drum till it breaks...you hear me my little asian friend?

After the drum move to the tamborine and then the trumbone and then harmonica.

Turn up my symphony man...turn that fucking shit up.